ATM the worst thing about all this is the dizziness, one minute I’m fine and normal the next dizziness and feeling sick, apparently from the anti seizure tablets but they are almost worse than the Amos moments, at least he only lasts half an hour and he makes me laugh – well OK that’s not strictly true, he made me laugh after when I was being stupid.

I’ve started taking the CBD, the first time I felt urgh and spent the afternoon sleeping,now TBH I don’t know if that was from the cold I’ve got, the CBD or if that was the tablets so I’ve decided to take it before bed, I’ve woken up feeling brilliant so hopefully this is the way it will work for me – that is ongoing.

I’ve had the fear this week, the fear of having staples in my head mostly and how much of my hair will be shaved, so I will need a new hairstyle/cut, after all the mother of the bride can’t go to her daughters hen weekend with half a shaved head eh?!

My memory is bonkers, forgetting what you’re talking about part way through a conversation is literally making me look ridiculous, constantly apologising for forgetting what I’m saying. I asked my daughter yesterday if my memory is worse, she used this as an excuse for saying “we’ve been telling you for ages that we’ve told you stuff and you say no we haven’t”. Thank God I can laugh about this, possibly not the best time to decide to get into some studying, I’m going to get through the exams online (with my notes in front of me) and then forget what I’ve done, oops. I’ll probably have to redo them when this is all over. So much for me studying so I don’t go bonkers – too late. But the course I’m doing are on naturopathy and meditation so restudying them won’t be the end of the world and the meditation can only do me good, definitely better to do before bed than watching orange is the new black or emmerdale.

I’ve made my list of questions for the consultant next week
How big will the cut in my head be?
Will all my hair be shaved off?
How long will I have to take the dizzy tablets for?
How long will it take for my brain to go back into it’s space that it’s been shoved out of?
Will my memory, hearing and eyesight improve?
Do I get put to sleep for the operation? – This is a massive issue as someone thought it would be a good idea to tell me that often they do this operation while the patient is awake NO NO NO NO put me to bloody sleep FFS

My diet has been pretty good this week apart from birthday cake and ice cream, now here’s a thing re the ice cream, I love it, I can’t drink wine or gin and I love that too so I refuse to give up ice cream!

I’m looking into coconut oil and it’s benefits for meningiomas, now I’ve been using coconut oil for a long time, to cook, to put in my coffee and to use to clean my make up off and I love it. The Thais apparently call it the beauty oil because of it’s fantastic benefits to the skin but I am going to look into it’s real health benefits and could it really shrink Amos? So far my research has said of the symptoms of meningiomas could be, memory, vision problems, memory loss, hearing problems, memory loss, seizures and memory loss. Well thats bloody marvelous because I actually have them all especially the memory loss. Apparently if I can find someone who wants to massage the coconut oil into my scalp – a nice indian head massage with coconut oil, will have an Amos shrinking effect, sounds brilliant, I just need to find someone who wants to give me a free head massage!!! This will also have a massive benefit to regrow my hair after the eviction, be a great calmer for one of my stressy days, apparently will improve concentration, hahaha that sounds exactly what I need, and will improve circulation, cleansing the blood and the lymphatic system. So in the event of not finding a free daily head massager youtube searching it is to teach myself to massage my own head as I really can’t afford a daily head massage with a professional. Isn’t it funny that when looking for something like that on youtube I want to look for a woman teaching me, when I break my phone I only look for a man to fix it, we really are gender specific