OK so to wake up with a pain that is like a bee sting is a damn pain in the head (obviously I would usually say arse but that is def the wrong place!) This is right on the scar, WTF is that all about? Well I shall tell you.When you get cut you cause damage to your nerve endings, you know that yes? Well what you may or may not know is that in your head you have micro nerve endings, thousands of them, who knew? I DID NOT, I also DID NOT know that these micro nerve endings bloody hurt when they start knitting themselves back together to heal, they are literally like bee stings and can last anything from 6 months to 2 years. FFS cos I haven’t suffered enough with seizures, having my head cut open, sight loss, memory loss, ear infections, lack of sleep, ridiculous medication, not allowed to work, travel or drive, lets have just a bit more bloody pain!!!!!!
TBH I did go into panic mode until I knew what it was, once I know what causes the pain I can relax and know that I’m not involuntarily reopening and letting everything inside my head fall out, urgh what a foul thought. I was offered some horribly strong pain killers that have disgusting side effects, they were declined, I’ll stick to paracetamol, a nice cuppa and some sleep it off time.
The ravenousness of the steroids have made me gain half a stone OMG I am going to be the mother of the bride in November wearing a tent, so the time has come to go to slimming world, yes that’s right I have joined a fat club (hehehehe) TBH despite the franticness of the start of the class I will stick to it, I have weight to lose and a stunning size 12 mother of the bride dress to fit into. I am half a stone heavier than I was before Amos was discovered so thats it’s got to come off so salad and yoga along with my 10,000 steps a day is it. I haven’t got time to be ill.
Meditation has been a bit of a life saver, I am loving reading and studying. I am most of the way through my course now, I hope it all will sink in and I will be able to use it to benefit other people as well as myself. I have 100% decided that when I am well enough I want to be able to use these amazing new skills to help others better themselves naturally. I know I can make myself better without shed loads of chemical drugs. I know that a good sleep or relaxation technique can make me feel better and that it can help others. I don’t want to be cynical and say that some people don’t want to be better that they are so they can stay on their benefits but there is a slight cynical side of me that has that belief .
On this cynical note I am going to sign off, please know that I am not this miserable and cynical person, honestly I am not 🙂
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