I’ve worked my poorly little brain a lot the last few weeks. I’ve put myself on yet another course, mindfulness this time. I think that once I’ve completed that the four courses that I have under my belt will set me up for a great future business and that’s exciting. Thank goodness for groupon, it keeps having these courses for really good affordable prices, so I can keep studying 🙂

I’ve been asked to help a couple of people out with hypnosis, I have a chap who has got terrible sleeping habits and another who can’t eat any fruit or veg. I’m going to use them as practise (obviously they know this, I’m not just letting them think I really know what I’m doing). I have worked so hard to get to this point but now I’m being asked to help someone it’s nerve racking. This really does mean it’s time to start using what I’ve learned.

I’ve also been doing the brain training  https://www.lumosity.com/ some days I really don’t like it because it’s tiring but most days I’m doing it and beating my daily scores. Then there’s the Spanish https://www.duolingo.com/course/es/en/Learn-Spanish-Online are both free apps that I’ve been using most days, they really good and giving me the kick up the bum that I’ve needed to keep going, I don’t like missing days on either of these so I make time to slot them in. Finally on my learning is Spanish again, Michele Tomas is a reknowned language teacher, I bought his Spanish course years and years ago, it’s great to put on the audio on my phone and listen to while I’m getting my steps in. I am feeling accomplished and maybe a tiny bit smug 🙂 My next step on this is to see if I can find a Spanish group to join, socially I don’t know how I’ll manage but I think it might be time to try something new.

I’ve had another benefits assessment this week, this time I am not doing it on my own, my brother (the rottweiler) is my support. He had reams of paper of information. The organisation had already been told by my brother not to send the previous vile assessor as he caused me so much distress that he brought on a seizure. So this time it was a lady and genuinely she was lovely, shocked when we told her about the past experience. As well as the assessment went it brings back all the bloody awful stuff again, listening to my brother explain the security thing that I have to carry around in case of emergencies or how my social life has changed and my life nearly brought me to tears. I’m not sure about how I felt when he told her that some days he turns up to pop in and I haven’t even got out of my pyjamas!!!! They are very nice, comfy, warm fleecy pyjamas! That and then my daughters telling me they think it’s time I go back to work – I think they are getting bored of worrying about me. I’m bored of worrying about me. I’m ashamed to say that a shitty facebook post has told a few people how fed up I am of them 🙁 (not proud of that at all!!)

So here goes on the medication. I am now taking 2 drops in the morning and 2 drops in the afternoon of the CBD and I generally feel great, sleep well, fog lifting for longer and longer periods of the day. I sleep well too, it seems to take me ages to go to bed as I’m more awake but I sleep like a log. I’ve also got the balm which I am putting on my scar which honestly feels like it’s softening and shrinking. This stuff is literally like magic, I love it so much I’m sharing again  https://www.lovecbd.org/ I’ve reduced my anti depressants to half and am having no bad effects, felt miserable yesterday in the morning after talking to my daughter but that was the conversation not the tablets. My hair is definitely growing thick and fast thanks to silica and vitamin b. So all in all things are improving. I’m still waiting for a neurology appointment but am really living in hope that 6 months free of a seizure will see a reduction in the keppra and 12 months free of seizures will see me keppra free and back to normal life with work, wine and travelling again woohoo.

On that note I’m signing off to do a workout, I’ve got a bikini I need to shape into 🙂