Just tears

I’ve just got back from the hospital and it was pretty much everything I was expecting and my reason for being scared and sick all day was right. The eviction is booked in for 20th July, it will take all day to do it. The surgeon is fantastic and got a great...

What an amazing weekend

I have to say that my daughters friends are utterly amazing. All the pain and screaming matches and fighting and arguments that I had with my growing up girls were worth every moment to see the incredible women that have been created. Saturday I was picked up by my...

Dizzy days but that’s not what it’s all about

ATM the worst thing about all this is the dizziness, one minute I’m fine and normal the next dizziness and feeling sick, apparently from the anti seizure tablets but they are almost worse than the Amos moments, at least he only lasts half an hour and he makes me...

Feeling sorry for myself

Today I felt like shit, I cried for my own fear and then I cried for my own selfishness. The reason? I went to see my daughter try on her wedding dress, she looks like a princess, as stunning as I dreamt she would look like on her wedding day when I held her in my...

Food, dizzy and news

Food change has started, after eating a superstore worth of chocolate and sleeping for a full day it’s time to sort this bloody rubbish out and the food is the first place to start. Breakfast of overnight oats with chia seeds, coconut water and goji berries or...

Fear Day

So today is the fear day, today is the day I wait for the phone call from the hospital to find out what’s the future for Amos. I’ve woken up in fear, dizzy, sick and over riding fear. I wait and wait and wait, walk and wait, have a fabulous lunch and wait,...

Flowers, flowers and more flowers

Whats a woman got to do to get a house full of flowers? Oh yeah have an Amos move in!!!!! I can’t get enough thankyous out for the massive amount of flowers I’ve got I’m a bit fed up of having to say the words really quickly and refusing to repeat...

Is this sinking in yet?

What has sunk in so far is that my daughters are AMAZING, not only were they amazing with me and my bonkers brain but they were amazing with the other patients in the wards I spent my 2 days in. I’m not sure how I managed to bring these two amazing women up but...

Day 2 sinking in

My crazy thought process on this madness is that I love my personality so much I decided to grow an extra one, mad? But I don’t feel anything other than mad right now. He has a name, Amos. Several reasons for this but mainly because I am going to be staying at a...

The beginning of Amos

I’ve got a tumour!!!!! How the hell did that happen? Uninvited and unwelcome, he can bugger off now. So I’ll share the evening of his discovery. Walking home from a rainy walk, I’m as usual on the phone having a natter, I don’t realise it but I...